Below are the 14 most recent journal entries recorded in mnd1691's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, March 26th, 2008
12:01 pm	*Ahem* Right.  So. About that whole updating thing that people do sometimes. ... I don't so much. I do on my tabby still once in a while... but i don't think of this blog very often in all honesty. And quite frankly i'm not sure anyone reads this, on account of me not posting in it and all that. I know i heard rumors once of an amazing ability to link tabbys and live journals together so you could friend people on both from either... but i'm not smart enough to figure it out. So for those of you who i have friended on here, if you read this, I'm sorry for not keeping up with you more. *hugs* I hope stuff is going well for all of you, and for those of you i don't see very often (by which i mean all of you) i miss you.  *much hugs* <3MND (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 11th, 2005
10:36 pm	oh blah. *sigh* *sigh* sorry guys i suck. also, if you want an update for real, check my tabby.... there's an unpleasent, long, chewy, miserable, yucky rant in there about my life as it is currently. *sigh* check ya later. MND (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 20th, 2005
8:06 am	ooga-booga MND169 is a Tall Chef Ninja that has a Metal Jaw and a Long Neck, likes to Lurk in the Dark, and can breathe Underwater. Strength: 8 Agility: 4 Intelligence: 3 To see if your Super Battle Ninja can defeat MND169, enter your name and choose an attack: fights MND169 using Strength Agility Intelligence hehehe Your Brain is 73.33% Female, 26.67% Male Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you! What Gender Is Your Brain? i'm not entirely sure what to say to that. And as to everything else. *sigh*. that's all. just *sigh*. blech. l8r All. <3MND (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 14th, 2005
11:45 pm	So... someone posted the following in Matto's blog. Anon says: Since anon comments are disabled on your posts, I will use this. I understand your choice of religion. I also understand the deity which exists behind the religion, and I understand the seperation of religion and spirituality. And I can say this: While the Christian God is a vengeful and angry one, He is also one that is fair and just. Above all things, He commands his servants to Love one another and makes it abundantly clear that above all else, that IS His will. It is a shame for someone to claim one thing, and then depart from it so entirely. May the God which exists have mercy on your soul for the damage which you unjustly caused. Hrm. I'm not positive who it was, but i'm pretty darn sure... I don't mind, i don't think it's bad necessarily, however i was a little surprised to see it. and even more surprised to realize who i think it is. i'm not going to say in case it's not, but... i'm interested. Yes he's hurt me. i would even go so far as to say that he has in fact "damaged" me. and basically everything else there religion related is something that i've already said. *chuckles sardonically* of course, when i said it it didn't matter. *rolls eyes and shrugs* hopefully this will bring him to his senses and i will stick to my guns. *sigh* so... maybe i should cut back on the western's.... lol j/k l8r MND (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 11th, 2005
2:46 pm	Carolyn's party was beautiful. I managed not to ruin it with my melodrama which makes me happy :-) We played fun party games that resulted in Dino, Josh andHeather wearing toilette paper wedding dresses which i've gotta admit was... interesting. :-P Then there was present time and Carolyn got lots of stuff either to prevent fires or that is none-flammable or to replace things she's burned :-P it was fun and amusing. and she hugged her new dishes and dishclothes and blender a lot lol. And then after the parents left, Jenn and Dino and I gave her our *cough* bachellorette present which i'm sure she'll find use for... *grins and winks* and then Josh bequeathed the Nook a huge selection of his magic cards that we've all gotta go through and argue about *sighs* and then we played magic a lot :-D *does a dance* it was actually only one game but it was one of our longer games. Dino ended up at five life with no creatures for like 20 minutes and no one would kill him because he'd keep helping everyone out with stream of lifes etc. that was amusing. It finally came down to Heather and I and it was basically who drew the right card first. *shrugs* hers came up first so she won... eventually. if i hadn't known i HAD the right card in the deck, i prolly woulda quit about then anyway just because she was going to deck me. she's not playing with a sixty card deck. grrr. *snickers* not playin' with a full deck.....*giggles* good times... So anyhoo, then we headed home and due to stress levels being up and everyone kinda cranky at the end of the day, i really had to fight the urge to jump outta the car and just start walking. really. once we were on the highway of course there wasn't much of a choice... jumping out of a car doing 70 mph not being my usual idea of fun.... but at the stop light i really REALLY wanted to just get out and walk away. and see if anyone cared. meanwhile, i've decided that i don't honestly think he reads this. he doesn't post in his and he hasn't posted comments on anyone else's in a long time so i'm guessing that he's very busy and doesn't think of us silly college students much anymore. how can you be so not-sure of something and do it anyway? especially when there's someone who i would have thought you'd trust telling you that they're COMPLETELY sure of the exact opposite?!? This doesn't make sense to me. "A marriage may be made in heaven but the maintainance must be done on earth" - _God's Little Devotional Book_ page 6. For anyone who's interested, that is the first devotional - well part of it - in that book. It was the first thing i read in Missouri when my mother gave me the book. She left and the next morning i opened it and read that. that and a few other devotionals in there were what got me through the summer. Knowing i was coming home to him. that we were ok. he told me so. and then finding out that the last month or so was a lie. i honestly can't say anything about it. as far as i'm concerned he lied to me for a month or better. and then basically dragging out the breakup for a week or so, and now no matter what i do it's wrong. i can't call him, that's stalkerish. i can't wait by the phone for him to call - a it gets nothing done and b it's pathetic. i can't ask him to come visit me, we're not dating. i can't hang out with him justs the two of us because i alternate between wanting to kiss him back to sense and wanting to beat him in the face with a 2x4. i can't even touch him in general because i just never wanna stop. hugging is like hell. like dangling a pitcher of water just out of reach of a man lost in the desert. over and over and over and over. and yet... i can't ask him or tell him to stop calling me or talking to me or visiting me or anything because then i want to die because i don't have any contact with him at all i want to know if he's still got that ring. bets are he doesn't. he's lost it, or forgot to put it on one day and every day since. I know that we didn't always follow the point behind it. and yes i regret that. i regret a lot of things, one of which is the fact that i've done things to regret. but i worked my way through those things on my own in MO partially because of the ring. it always reminded me of not only God but also Matt and the committment i'd started there. and i thought the commitment between the three of us. guess i was wrong again. i have a gift for that. i'm gonna go watch a movie where everyone dies. and cry. call the cell. MND (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 11th, 2005
12:46 am	I encourage everyone who reads this or any of my other blogs to copy and print these out. I have found several of them useful at various times. EMERGENCY PHONE NUMBERS When in Sorrow - call John 13 When men fail you - call Psalm 27 If you want to be fruitfull - call John 15 When you have sinned - call Psalm 51 When you worry - call Matthew 6: 19-34 When you are in danger - call Psalm 91 When God seems far away - call Psalm 139 * When your faith needs stirring - call Hebrews 11 When you grow bitter and cynical - call 1 Corinthians 13 For Paul's secret to happiness - Cor 3:12-17 For the idea of Christianity - Cor 5:14-19 When you feel down and out - Romans 8:31-19* When you want peace and rest - Matthew 11:25-30 When the world seems bigger than God - Psalm 90 When you need Christian assurance - Romans 8:1-30 When you leave home for labour or travel - Psalm 121 When your prayers grow narrow or selfish - Psalm 65 For a great invention/opportunity - Isaiah 55 When you want courage for a task - Joshua 1 How to get along with your fellow men - Romans 12 When you think of investments/returns - Mark 10 If you are depressed - Psalm 37* If your pocketbook is empty - Psalm 37 If you're losing confidence in people - 1 Corinthians 13 If people seem unkind - John 15 If you are discouraged about your work - Psalm 126* If you find the world growing small, and yourself great - Psalm 19 Emergency numbers may be dialed direct. No operator assistance is necessary. All lines to Heaven are open 24 hours a day. Feed your faith and doubt will starve to death. The Bible can be your best resource! Don't be afraid to open the Word of God. You may be surprised at what you find! *these are passages that i have honestly used and i tell you they're good. they work. give them a try. just take a deep breath, open your mind and your bible, and read it. Agape. <3MND P.S. whether or not you currently consider yourself to be Christian in one way or another, feel free to look these selections up and just read them. some of them are very Godly, some of them are simply.... resolute. which sometimes is all a person needs. and if you happen to find God while doing that *winks* who am i to complain?! lol *hugs* (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 8th, 2005
10:34 am	mind map? ( Click here to see! ) *chuckles* well i guess that means i oughta talk to more people or something.... too bad we don't have this kinda thing for tabby... that'd undoubtedly be way more interesting in my case lol. (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 2nd, 2005
2:09 pm	i will be home in 14 days. ... not that i'm counting or anything... :-P i cannot WAIT. this is probably the worst case of extended homesickness i've ever had, and to be honest, i think i'd rather have a two hour serious bout of it rather than this horrible never ending miasma (nice word usage eh? lol) of longing, self-pity, something akin to despair but not actually because i KNOW that eventually i will go home so it cannot go on forever however much it may seem to :-P and thus, the countdown :-P Current Mood: grateful (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 21st, 2005
2:00 pm	mwahahahahah i changed stuff :-D YAY! Fun :-) and blue! *dance* And i dyed my hair red and painted my nails purple and glued pretty little gems to some of them :-D hehehe And i think i just found the opening theme to 10th Kingdom (WHICH I LOVE) :-) http://www.kcstarlight.com/celtic-frameset.htm the first one is it i think. :-) <3MND (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, June 27th, 2005
3:41 pm	whoopee! Yay me! i uploaded usericons so now i'm not a weird faceless head anymore!...hopefully.... :-P lol i'm so proud... :-D <3MND (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 18th, 2005
11:03 pm	*chuckles* You Are Absinthe! You have a unique personality. Although most like you, sometimes you take some getting used to. You can be a bit strong. You are full of energy and sometimes flamboyant. You are the life of the party but if people are not careful you can knock them on their ass. What Naughty My Little Pony Are You? mmmm goodtimes (Comment on this)
7:31 pm	i feel so.... torn.... there's Tabby, where i've been now for three years almost.... and then there's livejournal where only a few people i know blog and some of them not even regularly.... course, the tabby users have been kinda edging out of late too... prolly goin' out of style what with people finally getting lives and whatnot *chuckles* So i wanted to leave work today when we weren't doing anything but my boss said to stay until after the preshow. so i wanted to check that it would be ok if i left like right after that. (i need to do laundry like nobody's business *shudders*) and she was just like "You can leave now. go home." and then i felt guilty!! I DIDN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING AND I STILL FELT GUILTY!!! as if i ever do anything... i got to type line sets today. that i knew when i was typing was wrong. and would have to be changed. but i did it anyway, because that was my busy-work for the morning. then i got to sit and watch a stupid man try to choreograph a bunch of prosti-tots, and a) he is not that attractive to watch, and b) his choreography, to say the least, leaves a bit to be desired as far as i'm concerned. now, admittedly, choreography is not my specific field, so i don't really think i should have a whole lot to say about it, BUT HELL THEY WON'T LET ME INTO MY SPECIFIC FIELD SO WHY THE HELL NOT!!???!?!?! and i can't tell if this community chorus group is just stupid or what if they don't know the words and their moves by now, i mean i've watched them rehearse them for four hours straight, hell I know their damn choreography!! i admit that i usually pick up music quicker than many but they should know it by now for crying out loud! *sits down and bawls* in case you can't tell, i am sick and tired of this bull shit and there's nothing i can do about it, and if i weren't quite so stubborn i'd give the hell up and go home where i want to be so i can see my friends and go to Faire, and hell be anywhere but here!! the other interns are startting to get annoyed with me because i'm always like this... i try not to be but it never works... i always end up like this at the end of the day. after being there 8 hours and doing NOTHING.... *cries* i HATE this. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 16th, 2005
3:57 pm	so...yeah One would assume, wouldn't one? that a lighting design internship would actually result in having something to do with stage lights.... am i crazy? i mean, i've seen some from a distance... and i had a vague look at the lightroom... but i'm not allowed to go down and hang out and shadow people like the sound intern, and thus far i'm learning nothing about lights! *cries* i'm starting to get upset about this. the fact that my other and better half is 17 hrs away isn't helping muchat the moment. I've been reading C. S. Lewis' Mere Christianity at his suggestion, only a little bit at a time in the hopes that i will assimilate better, and while it does bring up some interesting new insights, mostly it just makes me miss him more. *is sad* i can't even talk to him on the phone anymore because he's at summer camp. I've been here since 9AM. it's now 4PM. i had a brief spat with the printer and copier both....and for the last hour or so i sat and watched one VCR copy a tape from the other VCR. that was exciting whoo boy let me tell you. i mean, it's great that i have the free time to get more of my capstone done, but... it's depressing as hell that i went through all the effort and the money and everything to get to come out here and...they're not gonna let me do anything relating to my field! i'm slowly having a bad day. *sigh* PLUS i couldn't have tunafish for lunch and that was upsetting too. and then the guys had taco bell and that made it worse cuz i didn't have that either. *pouts* and that's all i'm posting in here for now. you can check my tabby for more of which there may or may not be any :-P <3MND (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, June 13th, 2005
11:26 pm	OMG! i'm NOT completely braindead!! wow... i've finally figured out how to post in here.... absolutly amazing... i gave up, i only signed up so i could be on one of my friends friends lists *rolls eyes* i have a tabby so if anyone is actually interested in my life, keep track of that. ... if you are looking at my site and know me, then you prolly know my tabby too. *yawns and stretches* welp, been a long day i think i'm gonna eat some cereal *yum* and hit the sack...:-) hopefully i'll finish the cereal first so i don't make a mess :-P lol MND (Comment on this)